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[Nov. 11th, 2008|03:18 pm] |
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bringing the live journal back HOLLLA HAHAHHAA |
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[Jan. 25th, 2005|05:00 pm] |
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holy shit this is so weird. its like im in a time capsule. i was reading some of the stuff i wrote like 6 months ago and i was really stupid
holla |
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[Oct. 21st, 2004|01:24 pm] |
dude i love my little alien!
awesome time getting lost in freehold with lindsey awesome
mush is back
awesome |
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[Oct. 4th, 2004|09:13 pm] |
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i hate this thing. its so gay. |
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[Sep. 18th, 2004|10:14 pm] |
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i was in the newspaper today |
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[Sep. 7th, 2004|08:11 pm] |
i really really dont like my dad. seriously emily even thinks hes wacko. whats his deal?? i mean like he never home and doesnt give a shit about anything besides hes boat and hes job. but when it come to putting me down for something hes all over that like ants on a lollipop. i bet if i asked him what my favorite color is he wouldnt know. he doesnt even know where my mom puts the coffee or the pizza cutter in the kitchen. is anybody willing to beat up my 5foot 4, flatfooted, bigheaded, mother fucker of a dad??? id be willing to pay them.
i had a fun day today . my coach thinks im crazy, he warned me to stay out of touble. my tennis team knows what im talking about. like i would do anything that would get me in trouble!!!?? ha ha ha
i heart my Squish name necklace very much.
AMEN. |
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[Aug. 26th, 2004|07:27 pm] |
mom changed my sisters screan names password so i cant go online until punishment is over..... tear
but my mom let me use her sn to books up online....sucker heh
today was the first day i felt..... normal i acntally smiled and i ment it lol idk sence ive been home i havent really been my self idk weird nevermind
when i went to the school this morning to get my leg wrapped i saw erin kaitlin and crystal chearleading it up. haha i miss them ...sigh....
i won my tennis match and now im in the singles draw... id anyone knows what that is lol ooh well just know that its good.
took a bubble bath yayyy for me
tomorrow just to happened to be Mush's 17th Birthday YAYYY FOR HIM!!
AMEN. |
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[Aug. 18th, 2004|09:01 pm] |
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| | sixteen candle in the background | ] |
things are slowly getting better with my parents. but still no cell and sn. grrrrr
i trying to be good i swear.
reading alot..... books arent as bad as i thought they were good even
this old lady farted on me today at work.... really really gross
things are starting to get back to the way they were before i left for camp..... its good i guess
........not really tho
so far nothings happened yet.... but i really really miss you.
AMEN. |
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[Aug. 12th, 2004|10:01 pm] |
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work work work.... tennis tennis tennis..."caitrin you suck at life"-parents - my life sence i got home
im really really stressed out. but i always was.
i had the worst anxiety atack today at tennis practice. my hands started shacking, i couldnt breath, my pulse was really fast,and i was light headed. i was so scared. its from everything thats been going on.
i really hope our plan works. really really hope.
AMEN. |
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[Aug. 10th, 2004|06:05 pm] |
my sister is really stupid and left her password on her dresser.
so im back online ..... sorta
i hate my dad
tennis last night...... fun but i played like shit tho
i miss mush
AMEN. |
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[Aug. 8th, 2004|02:07 am] |
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| | un-sweet sixteen - Wakefield | ] |
i am offically 16. and theres nothing sweet about it. |
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| yo homies |
[Jul. 13th, 2004|09:07 pm] |
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im at tennis camp right now playing tennis hehe
fun
i miss you
i miss my boat
and alot of my friends
I MISS MELISSA!!!!! |
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| The evil four letter word. |
[Jul. 8th, 2004|08:07 pm] |
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I know that this is going to sound a little weird to some of you who dont know me, but I feel it completely nessesary for you to know. I've given this alot of thought and its very hard for me to say so pay attention.
I'm not the most affectionite person. I mean like I can say I love you my friends all the time, but to truly mean it scares me to death. This might sound sad, but I've never said I love you to my sisters or even my parents, and they've never said it to me. But I hear its a very Irish thing not to and I'm as Irish as Irish can get. Even a priest noticed this about me.
I wish I can say it and mean it, but I can't... I've tried. You have no idea how much I regret not saying it to my grandpa before he died. This hole situation is killing me thats why I'm asking for advice and it feels good to finially get it off my cheast.
My problem is whenever I first meet a guy and things are looking pretty good.... I run. I mean I make a complete asshole of myself and I act like the hugest bitch and eventually he "gets the picture", thinks I'm not interested and gives up. Its not that I dont like the guy at all or that I'm afriad of commitment or anything, like I hope I get married one day..... for real. lol. I'm just afraid of getting hurt. I'm not much of a gambeling person either. Like I live for the momment, but I dont like taking risks. So I've never been at the point in a realitionship with a guy where I knew I was in love, and it scares me that if I dont get over this soon I will be alone for the rest of my life.
I know I've been a bit shady latly and the hugest bitch to you and I'm sorry, you dont deserve it. Even though I've been really stressed out over work and getting ready for camp, but thats not an ascuse for being mean to you. But the truth is I can't help it. Its just that i think I'm falling in love with you and I don't know what to do. Things are so awesome between us that I don't want things to change. I have no idea what to do or even if I'm completely sane at this point.
so can someone please help me??
P.S. If you acctually took the time to read this all I thank you. Its kinda long and im sorry bout that. |
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[Jul. 7th, 2004|10:07 pm] |
i am never letting emily use my computer again..... hahaha
4th of july... what a random night
thanks to matt, rob, and chris for saveing me and l-a's life
haha
he is sooooo over. thank you jesus.
all it seems like im doing lately is working and it suuuccckks!! its getting me so stressed out.i have so much to do before i leave. aahhhh
4 days!! YAYYY |
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[Jun. 30th, 2004|10:19 pm] |
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everyday sence schools been out ive done something.... i guess thats a good thing
i miss him
went to emilys today. we played some tennis, i wanted to try out a demo. i like it... i like it alot.
i tried to be poetic today but i got as far as " where art thow, my heart was designed to exfoliate" i think its pretty good hahah
the other night i went to black beards with emily. we did the gocart thingys and i almost died. and there was this drunk kid there pulling down his pants so being that asshole that i am i screamed "hey put your pants back on" and he goes "suck dick you cunt" hahah i thought it was kinda funny.
work tomorrow and practicly all week ...... fuck i was soposted to go today but i forgot to call in to see when i was working ... woops .... im not so good at this responsibility thing
i cant wait unitl this week is over and im away at tennis camp. i have so much to do before tho.... crap. i promised a bunch of people id hang out with them, work, a TON of packing to do, and i need to finish my scrapbook. and of course the nessisary boat rides. i have no idea what im gonna do. its gonna be sooo worth it tho.
11 days baby!
AMEN.
Caitrin |
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| he was a skater boy she said see ya later boy |
[Jun. 27th, 2004|01:00 pm] |
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| | tick tock tick tock | ] |
ignore the last post i didnt write. i love emo boys.
im back from florida.woop woop. it was awesome
some highlights
- beach/pool/boat
- cute little southern accents
- tan
- Leigh-Ann's family (they were fun shut up)
- water balloons/water guns
- rollarcoasters
- phone calls to random people from Leigh-Anns cousin hahah
- the one and only really really hot guy who was the busboy at this resteraunt we ate at that i waved to. haha
- feeding the HUGE fish coleslaw, shrip tails, and green beans.
- getting woken up by my cell phone ringing at 3 in the morning by Mush.
some lowlights
- red neck hicks
- the lack of boys
- a certin red neck boy was a crack baby and whos father used to beat him. ahhh lol
- 12 year old boys
- sun burn
- getting hit on by 50 year old men
all in all i had alot of fun
2 weeks until NETC.. YAYYYY!!!!!!!! cant wait!!! |
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[Jun. 8th, 2004|08:37 pm] |
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i love it how so many people have been talking to me this week. people can be so fuckin shady.
you get all the fun. stop complaining. seriously i would do anything to be you for a day.
dude, get over it, there was nothing there in the first place. and there probably will never be. so stop fuckin obsessing over it.
i guess its over. theres nothing else i can do..... well i really didnt try that hard. it was fun while it lasted
liars are not cool.
exams are gonna kill me
tennis practice felt SO good today. if you have anyidea what it feels like to win a point in a sport you love.
hopefully when summer comes things will change..... (sigh)
AMEN. |
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| stolen from cait |
[Jun. 7th, 2004|10:33 pm] |
--Your Favorite--
Hair Color:: Brown
Eye Color:: green
Music Genre Preference:: punk, emo, indie rock
Height(estimate):: 5'6 anything call then me
Age:: older hehe
Personality Type:: hmm... interesting
--This or That--
Older or Younger:: older
Romantic or Horndog:: romantic
Smart or Stupid:: smart
Fat or Skinny:: skinny
Skinny but Muscular or Big and Muscular:: skinny but muscular
Punk or Preppy:: punk
The Big Picture or the Little Things:: Little Things
Flowers/Candy or Big Expensive Present:: flowers and candy
Mixtape or Burned CD:: mistape
Love or Lust:: love
Emotional or Just Not:: im not good with feelings
Sincere or Jokester:: sincere
Hott and mean or Ugly and sweet:: ugly and sweet
Sexy or Just "cute":: Sexy
Arse or Abs:: ass
Hair or Hands:: hair
Dimples or Eyes:: eyes
Biceps or Calves/Thighs:: calves and thighs
Teeth or Nose(some people are just wierd) :: teeth
Clean Shaven or Scruffy:: shaven
Rugged or Prim and Proper:: rugged
Countryboy or Cityboy: its all good
Date alone or With Friends: alone
Mama's Boy or Rebel Without A Cause:: rebel
--Have You Ever--
Dumped a guy because he liked you too much:: we wernt really going out
Loved a guy because he stalked you:: eww no
Loved a guy because he hated you:: why would i do that
Asked your friend's crush out:: never
Lead a guy on for kicks:: haha maybe
Asked a guy out purely because he was hott:: good idea
Flirted with guys even though you had a boyfriend:: yes
Lied about not having a boyfriend:: yes
Lied about having one:: no
Cheated:: never
Been Cheated on:: i hope not
Had a crush on a gay guy:: nope
--Their Clothing(yes/no)--
Boxers?:: yes
Briefs?:: no
Hat?:: yes
Skater Shoes?:: yes
Pimp Shoes?:: no
Band Shirts?:: yes
Vintage shirts?:: yes
Southpole/um..other thug clothes..?:: hahah are you kidding me???
Dixie Outfitters/Big Johnsons?:: sometimes
Independent/DC?:: yes
Skavenger/UGP?:: huh?
Fox/Thor?:: huh?
Jeans or Shorts?:: jeans
--Be Honest--
Would you ever date a guy for his money?:: no but a def turn on
Would you ever date a guy for his social status?:: does it look like i care about social status??
Have you ever liked hanging out with your bf's friends more than him?:: no
Have you ever pretended to like somebody to make them feel better?: yes
Have you called a girl a whore, when you were screwing lots of guys?:: hahaha
Do looks matter?:: its sad but yes
Are you honestly scared of being dumped?:: yes
Does size matter?:: DIRTY QUESTION!!
Do you avoid 'situations' with ugly guys?:: yessssss
Are you ashamed to be seen with your ugly friends?:: nope we are all ugly
Are you ashamed for being ashamed?(you better be):: hahah noo?
Do you hide things from your crushes/guy friends/bf?:: yes
Do you lie about masturbation for attention or false innocence?:: nooooo not at all
Do you really want a guy to say if those jeans make your butt look fat?:: i would want a guy to tell me the truth and anyway i would never ask him a stupid question like that
Are you dissapointed when your bf doesn't say I love you right away?:: no saying i love you makes me nervous and i run from the relationship
Wanna be a virgin till marriage?: im already married
Do you really love the guys everytime that you say it?: ive never said it before
Do you dream about your crushes/bfs/guy friends?:: only once
Would you makeout with a guy friend just to get it over with/curiosity?:: maybe
Does this survey suck nuts?: um...yes
sry i got bored
AMEN. |
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| Im at my grandma's house at the momment. |
[Jun. 5th, 2004|05:49 pm] |
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| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the water in the lagon | ] |
I really hate it when people are really fake and they act and say stuff to people just to that they would like them.....
anyway I just got off work. im really tired. I was the only person in my department and I was running around alot. I wanna go home.
Last night I went to see Harry Potter with Emily. I wore my witch cape from halloween. The movie was awesome, I cant wait to see it again. Except "she who must not be named" was there with her family. she scurrred me. lol
The other day my dad took me and my sister out on the old boat to teach us how to drive if so that this summer we can go out on our own. its was so much fun to drive. It felt so good. It was WILD. I cant wait to do it again.(big smile)
Why cant I find a decent guy, whos not an asshole or highly annoyang. cupcake isnt an option anymore. damn.
its so fucking cold!!!!!!!!
AMEN. |
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